tats not me and his mine!!

just nak update blog.. rite now after this i think i don't have enough time to do this again... after legislation company quit coz tat work really for a man not me.. more outstation rather than i'm in office... then accountant.. more difficult that i have think and now after my mom ask.. i would accept without my intention to work there...tats not me.. short skirt.. in RED.....blouse+blazer+ and the worse things is HIGH HEEL.. OMG!!!! but i will try ii.. (eeeeuuuu)...and other thing is i hope his really mine.. i means MOHD HANIF is relly mine. yar ryte his my boy.. i love him so much.. i hope he would give his heart.. trusty..honesty..

P/S: ku akan menjagamu
dibangun dan tidurmu
di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
ku akan menjagamu
untuk hidup dan matiku
tak ingin..tak ingin
kau rapuh

"perh dia punye degil seperti batu ada dalam kapala"

aku nak kongsi ngan korang lah kan ape yang aku buat masa lapang kan .. means my part time work at home.. macam-macam jadi lol.. memang tahap kesabaran aku tinggi melangittttt......nak taw.. aku jadi baby siter.. huhu mcm bukan baby la sangat kan.. dah tue pon.. aku jaga mak cik aku yang umo pon nak capai separuh abad. abah cakap yang mase sie sekolah rendah dulu dia kene demam panas then the result until now.. dia memang la boleh biat tapi kite kene berkali2 ingat kan dia..haishhh cube korang pikir kalo korang kat tempat aku.. dah la aku nie panas baran.. ikotkan ati da aku campak..hahahaha tapi ye le.. still ada rasa hormat lgi.. kepada WANCHU aku plesss la itu batu dlam kapala lor kasi buang kalau tak.. siap ade yang aku buat!!!!! sayang kooooo... sagat...wakakakaka.....

P/S: tada papa.. x buat lg doh.... tolong....jagan buat aku macam nie.. (ayat merayu )

when i saw u a whole day i will smile

bila aku sunyi mesti aku teringat kat kau... teringat masa2 kite bersama dulu.. yelah kawan kan macam mana pon mesti ada pertelingkahan walaupun aku rasa aku tak bersalah pada kau...bila aku tgok LOVE STORY mesti aku rasa cerita tu ada CONNECTION ngan aku padahal aku yang lebih2. bak kata akak aku ... aku nie cepat perasaaan..huih..huih...dan setiap kali tu jugak aku menangis teringat kat kaw.. ape tah salah aku.. maybe skarang nie fizikal yang jadi ukuran tapi ingat lah bende tu tak kemana wahai kawanku.. dan aku still tunggu kaw walau pon dah nak masok 6 tahun...choi kan...bile aku teringat...

1] when i won a contest bout decorate a cake all over school and i got a kiss with my dad, u saw me then u said that i'm too affectionate with my dad...and i not forget to give a slice to u then u said i was a delicious cake then i said that i'm not bake a cake but just decorate..

2] when i seek my lil sis that u follow me and said something that make me was grateful person in the world

3] when we discuss about the moon

4] when u got your salary then u spend your money to buy ice-cream to me

5] when u play the kite at the field

6] when the first time that u call me

7] when u ask that u want a date with me

8] the m'cd sunday cone, the movie, the books....

and many more great memories with u my friend that i never forgot it.. i wish that will happen again and we can BACK together but i know that it will not happen again. both of we are too far for it..i want u to be friend to me but I really not know that i can accept or not.. by the way thanks for everythings...

mak aku dengan kebun main2ner...

kat kawasan umah aku nie ada la padang yang luas bawah bukit.. then owang2 kampung da deside nak mencangkul la buang dia punya rumput.. tp sekarang dah jadi len lak. dah jadi kebun lak tuh siap berebot tanah la plak kan... mak aku pon join la sekaki tapi x la rebot tanah sbb bapak aku owang primer kat kebun tu... (primer means owang yang terawal yang mencadangkan nak bukak kebun)... so banyak lah yang diorang tanam.. siap nak menunjuk2 lagi ape yang di tanam.. tu ok lagi kalau yang dengki tu siap ada nak jahanamkan kebun owag lg yang satu hal... tu belom lg cemburu dengan hasil tanaman owg len.... siap buat pondok and tido, nak jaga kebun walhal x pk yang tanah tu tanah kerajaan.. PERASAANTAN tol lah.. umo je dah tue peraNGAI MACAM BUDAK.......one day,.. mak aku nyer pucuk betik kene curi , then cili padi tu blom lagi yang mak aku tak nampak.... cangkul pon owang nk kebas... padahal rumah dekat dengan kedai rm2... beli je lah kan senang. nie nak kompol dosa gak... haishhh x paham aku lau owang M nie. lau cakap nie kang menghina tapi cuba ubah perangai... yang aku marahkan bila mak aku menangis bila hasil tanamannyer owang curi ... memang sape aku dapat owang tu siap... kepale dia aku tanam...

P/S: lau nak tanam, jgn lupe tanam mangge sbb aku suke n manggis sekali

kenapa diam lebih baek dari berkata-kata

aku suke diam.. aku tak tahu knp aku suke diam dalam situasi

1) bile aku baru sedar bangun dari tidur then akak aku tanye macam2 spt angah lau nak masak mee goreng kene letak mee x? jawapan aku.. hmmmm jerk... then lau dia tanye lgi aku akan bg jawapan yg sama... adek aku dah paham yang aku x akan bercakap selagi aku tak gosok gigi.

2) bile aku rase marah dengan sape dalam kuage aku aku akan cakap "aku penat bercakap so aku nak diam!"

3)then bile aku rase malu aku diam la.. then bile diorang salah macam petir berdentum ah kene ngan aku kan

hard to make it!!

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything- crazier taylor swift

want to die but can't...want to pass but hidden stupid... sometimes hard to make a decision and sometimes not make a decision is a decision... doesn't think bout the real life but think bout how suffering are u to face the all Hippocratic people and answer all their question that hurt your heart and don't think bout ours feeling.. feel to be a bad but wasn't think bout KARMA....(others religion) but for me.. how to comfort my self right now.. being crazy coz thinking bout others.. bout right now getting lonely with the long journey to go babe...

to my future partner,

Every girl wants a man she can go to with her hair a mess, no make up, eyes red from crying and the first thing he says is "baby you are beautiful" and he means it would be the best part in our life that we can share our sadness and happiest.